My body...

This is me on a good day: 

This was me on Wednesday (3 weeks pregnant):

So, I weigh 115 lbs right now and my measurements are 34-27-34 (I wear a 32B bra, and I'm pretty bloated all around (It's worse than it was on Wednesday when the picture above was taken), especially my stomach area, since I haven't pooped in over 3 days. Ugh stupid bloating. I know that without bloating I have a 25 inch waist though) So this means I have gained weight instead of losing it this year. Not surprising since I gave up on walking around the neighborhood every day once it got chilly out since I don't have any super warm clothing, and I get bored quickly and easily when trying to walk circles around the house.

I want a treadmill, I can do treadmills no problem because I love them and burn off calories pretty easy but just walking around the house makes me feel stupid and I get distracted too easily and even walking outside I don't go as far as I do when I use treadmills. I think it's because I don't look at how far I'm actually walking on treadmills so time goes faster and next thing I know I've walked/jogged 5 miles.

That's fine by me though I like my body anyway and so does my husband. I'll work off stuff after the baby I guess. Right now I just want to be healthy and let my body do it's thing. It's not like I'm in bad shape, I'm just not in as good a shape as I was hoping to be. It's my own fault though. No one to blame but myself honestly. lol.

Anyway, I have been eating quite a bit of sugar and junk food (Chips, soda, candy, pretzels, ice cream, pizza, fast food, etc.) and that REALLY doesn't help matters. I should probably eat healthier. Like, not buying candy or junk or soda once what we have in the house is gone. Buying more veggie snacks (I love snacking on mushrooms, carrot chips, green pepper slices and stuff) and not even drinking a lot of tea or juices (I drink about a gallon of water a day already, the juices and tea are for having a drink with flavor more than anything and I can flavor water if I want to.)

I think a lot of it's in motivation. I don't really have it. I am fine with my body as it is now, sure I want to be in better shape but I'm OKAY with my body as it is now. I have a hard time motivating myself because of that. It's not like "Oh man. I am SO fat and out of shape! I should totally work out and eat right and lose weight and get in better shape!" Instead it's "Meh, I could look better if I wanted, but I'm fine as is."

Hubby doesn't help as he thinks he is fine as he is and well...he isn't in super-fit shape either... I love him and think he looks fine, so I wouldn't pressure him to work out or exercise or anything...I doubt it would work even if I tried anyway, lol. I think he is fine the way he is. It's life. When you're with someone long term, they usually don't look like they did when you first met after being together for a few years. As long as he doesn't let himself get obese I can deal with a little extra here and there, and hey that also means he can put up with a little extra on me as well.

And in that lies the issue. I think if hubby was in good shape, or trying to get healthy (outside of his little exercise group at work that is set up, it doesn't help ME when I have to do it alone and he gets work out buddies damn it!!) it would be a motivator for me to go "Okay, he is trying to look good, so I should try to look good too." I dunno. I think a treadmill, a work out buddy, and my husband right along side me would all help me to get into a better place than I am now. I'm still feeling good right now, but how about in 5, 10, 15 years? You know?


To clarify: I'm sexy. My husband is sexy. We could both be in better shape if we really wanted to be, but we're both fine the way we are. I don't love him any less and he doesn't love me any less just because we've both gained some weight since we met three years ago. We're not together for vanity reasons so it's not a big deal.

Anyway, that is my out right honest perspective about my body and stuff. So. Yeah. lol