Carpet.... (cont. of VENT post)

Carpet issue- The problem is the smell. I can small it. All over the house. Like, even upstairs where our bath tub is. And in the baby room where we will be sleeping. it is EVERYWHERE IN THE AIR. There is no escape from the smell.


Carpet update- Since posting we made progress. Neighbor came over to keep me company (Otherwise I would have ended up laying curled on my side in bed crying until I passed out) and then when Cellus got him he ran out to take care of doctor/insurance stuff for his leave from work and get us dinner. Meanwhile, our neighbor spent 2 hours with our deep cleaner cleaning the carpet and making some progress (Some progress, as in it did not get fully cleaned.)


But before Cellus left they talked about it and our neighbor was even like that "Yes, bissel is great. It is top of the line for what it is. However, you are talking about YEARS of built up animal urine (Jaaten DID NOT piss that much on the fucking carpet and it now smells like DOG piss instead of cat piss so it was the damn people who lived here LAST's mess we are now cleaning.) and shampoo/cleaner (because seriously, we are getting up SO MUCH GOD DAMN FOAM it is like they HAD to of dumped something on to of the spot to cover the smell/stain but didn't rinse it out afterwards...It's like someone spilled detergent on the carpet and left it to dry and it's just sat deep in the carpet for YEARS unnoticed...) and honestly, it is not meant for a project THAT extensive. It would be quicker and easier to get professionals in with industrial strength deep clean machines." but hubby wanted to keep trying with our Bissel. Sure. Knock yourself out. Just make sure the house doesn't smell like this when I go into labor. Seriously, it better not.


So anyway, 2 hours, some progress is made (The water started to be a lighter yellow, SLIGHTLY less foam coming up, etc.) now mind you we are only focusing on a SMALL SECTION of the den (About 8 feet by 5 feet) and this is already AFTER Cellus had spent 4 hours on sunday deep cleaning the same section (6 FUCKING HOURS AND IT'S STILL NOT CLEAN). So it's REALLY not looking good (And the smell is still hanging around, and even now HOURS after the fact the house smells...).


Cellus gets home, I eat food, neighbor leaves, Cellus takes over deep cleaning, I pass out on the couch because I don't want to deal with life right now, get woken up by Cellus. He tells me it's his bedtime and so I need to go sleep in my bed up here. Okay. So as I am making my way to bed he is talking (And I'm half asleep) and mentions "Oh, deep cleaner broke again." ... ... ... "We have professionals coming over tomorrow between 12 and 4. They should be able to finish in about an hour or two." ... ... ... "Write it on the board cause I will forget details when I wake up again (I totally did)". Soooo...We spent FOUR WEEKS waiting around on the repair. It got repaired. It worked A LOT better than the first time around (Seriously, have to give credit there. It had a MUCH longer life this time) but we now have a dead deep cleaner. Again.


So my brain is reminded how worried it made me intiially to cut it so close in the first place ("Four weeks to repair? That is cutting it close to full term and what if it breaks again will we have time to fix it again or do something, etc.") and my fear came to life since I wanted everything ready by this coming Sunday and it's obviously not ready yet (It is only Tuesday. We have time. I am trying to remind myself of this and not let it make me meltdown.). So now I just have to wait and hope that they can fix it tomorrow and the house won't stink anymore by Sunday. I am not going to stop worrying until Sunday, and depending on how it goes I might STILL be worrying...


Sigh... It's life, life sucks some times. I am just SO GLAD I got most everything else finished way early in pregnancy. I swear if I had waited until later in the game to try and start prepping (and some people thought I was being SILLY by wanting to get shit done so early...IN YOUR FACE) I'd be freaking the fuck out with that much more on my plate. As it is, the ONLY seriously big hold up at this point is the damn carpet issue. I think all in all we're not doing so bad. I just REALLY need this smell issue resolved ASAP. I can't labor and birth positively and effectively and healthily in a house that reeks of animal urine. Seriously.


At the end of the day though, I love my husband and I love my life in general. Things are just frustrating and stressful and overwhelming right now and it is making me bitchy and cranky and I am tring to not lose it and trying to not take it out on anyone. It'll settle down. I am pretty sure we will find a final solution to this in time for the birth. Until we do though, I WILL be worried and I WILL be stressed. And that's natural and normal and TOTALLY ACCEPTABLE given the situation. Cellus is honestly doing what he can though, he wants things ready so I can relax more, and I appreciate it more than anything and know he is doing his best and trying to make things better and it helps SO MUCH and means a lot to me. I'm honestly just frustrated with the situation, not with any given person.


Lilith, please stay in there until we get this fixed. I love you, and am excited to hold you in my arms, but it really will be okay, better actually, if you hang around in there until we get everything fixed and ready for your arrival. I love you and don't want you to be born into a house that reeks like animal piss and was not 100% ready for you to be here yet. It is NOT the birth situation/setting I want for me or for you. Please don't be in a hurry to come out.

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Good news though: Chiropractor issue is FIXED and I go see him next Thursday at 4. ♥ :D