Sleepless nights

As much as I want to go to sleep...I am enjoying this time with Lilith. Someday she will not want to party all night. Someday she will not be this little. She will not be this tiny little baby forever. It will go by before I know it and then I will miss it when it is gone. l will blink and she will be a big fancy teenager who wants to run off to sleepovers with her BFF and leave mama behind and I will sit up late into the night wondering what she is doing and if she is okay and having fun. I will some day pack up the baby toys and remember being kept up reading the same touch and feel books over and over and over and wish for her to be excitedly trying to turn the pages left and right just one more time. I will have plenty of sleep when she is grown and independent. This period of time is so short in comparison to a lifespan, and so much more precious than whatever dreams I could possibly be having. So I will drink another cup of instant coffee, read her another book, give her another hug and kiss, and remind myself to be thankful for these moments. Things could be worse. :)