Thursday, June 28, 2012
Just so you know....
It should totally be required for pregnant women to go swimming (preferably skinny dipping) at least once a week. Feels good man. Between swimming and the massage earlier today I feel AMAZING!!! ♥
Wednesday, June 27, 2012
Wednesday, June 20, 2012
Week 30 (long post is long)
So, we ordered our birth kit, AquaDoula liner, and amber teething necklace. Just waiting on the necklace at this point, we got everything else. I'm so excited.
We also ordered and got two puzzles for me and Singstar 1 and 2. We spent 3 hours playing Singstar the day we got it and spent about $34 in additional downloadable songs. I may laugh myself into labor from it, it has a playback function and you can change things like pitch. We sound much better as chipmunks while singing... ;)
We sent the carpet cleaner out to be repaired a couple days ago. They said 3-4 weeks so hopefully it will be here in time to clean the carpet and fix the den so I can birth in peace. In related news I'm copypasting a post I made last Saturday to one of my mom groups:
Jaaten has been pissing on the carpet and stuff and nothing we have tried has worked because our carpets are old and saturated deep deep down with urine and cleaners and stuff because our downstairs doesn't dry anything 100% ever. Seriously, our den/downstairs sucks when it comes to that and there isn't anything we can do to fix it really. Anyway, about the cat pee problem, basically we need to fix our deep cleaner and seriously get all the pee and cleaner soap stuff out of the carpet 100% so he'll hopefuly not smelll anything there and stop remarking. Right now it's "pee. clean. pee again clean again. pee some more. clean some more." endless cycle.
It is worse because it's easily accessed to him right now since Cellus moved everything away from that side of the room to deep clean the carpet (and then our deep cleaner died.). Once the carpet is clean and dried (Well, as dry as we'll probably be able to get it...) we can move things back where they belong and that will cover most of his pissing spots and hopefully the cleaning will fix the ones that are still exposed. So the side of the den where we are planning to put the birth tub and set things up for the birth has stuff here and there and the whole den is organized wrong right now while we try to deal with this. It's life, it's only for a little while, it will get better, I know this, but it still sucks and I'm still nesting and pregnant and crazy.
So anyway, starting yesterday we've start keeping him in the bathroom with his litter box and food and water when we cant keep an eye on him (sleeping, going out, when I have to do housework that requires focus etc.). I wish I could just babywear him. It makes me sad we have to do it but it's what we have to do for now it's really our last resort and only temporary.
Anyway, the point of all that backstory is so I can talk about my bad dream last night because I need some love and to know I'm not just being stupid and crazy, but instead I'm pregnant, hormonal, and crazy.
I had a dream that we did not get this issue fixed in time because like I said, I'll be birthing down in the den where this is going on and where things are at and how for the time being we have furntiure and things all moved around so we can clean the carpet and stuff because we need to. So I dreamt we didn't have the carpet issue fixed (I don't know why it was not fixed yet in my dream, I just know things were still set up like they are now) and so basically the den was nowhere near ready for the home birth and it smelled like cat pee and I could not have my birthing tub and I kept focusing on how everyting in the den isn't ready and it ruined my labor and everything was wrong with the setting and so I had a bad home birth.
I KNOW it was just a dream, I KNOW that we will most likely have it fixed in time for the birth (We have 8-14 weeks still...), and I KNOW that the dream doesn'tmean my birth will be awful. It just sucks having bad dreams and I wanted to talk about it and just get some love from you all where I won't be made to feel stupid or crazy for having a bad dream like this and being upset about it because the dream just sucked major ass even though it's "just a dream" or whatever. I KNOW it is just a dream, but it still isn't a happy one damn it, and I REALLY don't feel like being mocked or put down for feeling this way... I just want some support FFS... :(
I still have that fear but it's getting better now that we sent the cleaner in and Cellus has said that IF it breaks again we're just going to return it for store credit and get it cleaned by professionals so that it is ready in time nomatter what. ♥
Meanwhile, I am nesting again. I want to organize the den and sort things and get it all ready for the birth as the rest of the house isn't bugging me all that much and obviously can't yet. So I've resorted to e-nesting thanks to a room planner online and stuff. It helps a little, but I still REALLY want to go downstairs and clean and organize like crazy. lol
Now then, on to the week!!
I AM THIRTY WEEKS TODAY!!! That means I only have 6-12 weeks left (Baby can come anytime from when I'm 36-42 weeks). Where did the time go?! It's AMAZING to me how close I am to this pregnancy being over already. I KNOW I will miss being pregnant, it is seriously amazing and wonderful and has been one of the BEST times of my life, but hopefully having a wriggly/dancey baby in my arms instead of in my body will help keep the pregnancy fever away~ ♥
I am hoping she stays in closer to 12 weeks, and doesn't come sooner than 8 weeks.
We also ordered and got two puzzles for me and Singstar 1 and 2. We spent 3 hours playing Singstar the day we got it and spent about $34 in additional downloadable songs. I may laugh myself into labor from it, it has a playback function and you can change things like pitch. We sound much better as chipmunks while singing... ;)
We sent the carpet cleaner out to be repaired a couple days ago. They said 3-4 weeks so hopefully it will be here in time to clean the carpet and fix the den so I can birth in peace. In related news I'm copypasting a post I made last Saturday to one of my mom groups:
Jaaten has been pissing on the carpet and stuff and nothing we have tried has worked because our carpets are old and saturated deep deep down with urine and cleaners and stuff because our downstairs doesn't dry anything 100% ever. Seriously, our den/downstairs sucks when it comes to that and there isn't anything we can do to fix it really. Anyway, about the cat pee problem, basically we need to fix our deep cleaner and seriously get all the pee and cleaner soap stuff out of the carpet 100% so he'll hopefuly not smelll anything there and stop remarking. Right now it's "pee. clean. pee again clean again. pee some more. clean some more." endless cycle.
It is worse because it's easily accessed to him right now since Cellus moved everything away from that side of the room to deep clean the carpet (and then our deep cleaner died.). Once the carpet is clean and dried (Well, as dry as we'll probably be able to get it...) we can move things back where they belong and that will cover most of his pissing spots and hopefully the cleaning will fix the ones that are still exposed. So the side of the den where we are planning to put the birth tub and set things up for the birth has stuff here and there and the whole den is organized wrong right now while we try to deal with this. It's life, it's only for a little while, it will get better, I know this, but it still sucks and I'm still nesting and pregnant and crazy.
So anyway, starting yesterday we've start keeping him in the bathroom with his litter box and food and water when we cant keep an eye on him (sleeping, going out, when I have to do housework that requires focus etc.). I wish I could just babywear him. It makes me sad we have to do it but it's what we have to do for now it's really our last resort and only temporary.
Anyway, the point of all that backstory is so I can talk about my bad dream last night because I need some love and to know I'm not just being stupid and crazy, but instead I'm pregnant, hormonal, and crazy.
I had a dream that we did not get this issue fixed in time because like I said, I'll be birthing down in the den where this is going on and where things are at and how for the time being we have furntiure and things all moved around so we can clean the carpet and stuff because we need to. So I dreamt we didn't have the carpet issue fixed (I don't know why it was not fixed yet in my dream, I just know things were still set up like they are now) and so basically the den was nowhere near ready for the home birth and it smelled like cat pee and I could not have my birthing tub and I kept focusing on how everyting in the den isn't ready and it ruined my labor and everything was wrong with the setting and so I had a bad home birth.
I KNOW it was just a dream, I KNOW that we will most likely have it fixed in time for the birth (We have 8-14 weeks still...), and I KNOW that the dream doesn'tmean my birth will be awful. It just sucks having bad dreams and I wanted to talk about it and just get some love from you all where I won't be made to feel stupid or crazy for having a bad dream like this and being upset about it because the dream just sucked major ass even though it's "just a dream" or whatever. I KNOW it is just a dream, but it still isn't a happy one damn it, and I REALLY don't feel like being mocked or put down for feeling this way... I just want some support FFS... :(
I still have that fear but it's getting better now that we sent the cleaner in and Cellus has said that IF it breaks again we're just going to return it for store credit and get it cleaned by professionals so that it is ready in time nomatter what. ♥
Meanwhile, I am nesting again. I want to organize the den and sort things and get it all ready for the birth as the rest of the house isn't bugging me all that much and obviously can't yet. So I've resorted to e-nesting thanks to a room planner online and stuff. It helps a little, but I still REALLY want to go downstairs and clean and organize like crazy. lol
Now then, on to the week!!
I AM THIRTY WEEKS TODAY!!! That means I only have 6-12 weeks left (Baby can come anytime from when I'm 36-42 weeks). Where did the time go?! It's AMAZING to me how close I am to this pregnancy being over already. I KNOW I will miss being pregnant, it is seriously amazing and wonderful and has been one of the BEST times of my life, but hopefully having a wriggly/dancey baby in my arms instead of in my body will help keep the pregnancy fever away~ ♥
I am hoping she stays in closer to 12 weeks, and doesn't come sooner than 8 weeks.
Week 30
37-39.5-37 144 lbs
37-39.5-37 144 lbs
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Also, close up of my belly. My belly button is almost gone. lol
And that's a spider bite on my left arm... :<
Friday, June 15, 2012
Bedsharing
Someone on a forum asked "For those who bedshare: How long do you plan on doing it? My son is 2 1/2 now and we're still bed-sharing. Everyone says that's too old but I'm not really keen on forcing him to sleep alone when he clearly wants to sleep with me." and this next part is what I wrote in reply.
We will be sleeping upstairs in what will become our daughters room (As our king size master bed downstairs is high off the ground and has sharp heavy solid furniture, thus dangerous for bedsharing.) but what we plan to do is sleep up there on the full size mattress on the floor and eventually when she is ready I will move back downstairs when she is able to go up and down stairs and seems ready for it and then we will have an open door policy where she is always welcome in bed with us downstairs. I think age limits are dumb. I know my mother had an open door policy and that even at 14 years old I would on occasion want to just go up to her room and sleep in her bed because it was just nice to share a bed with someone at night. I could and 99% of the time would sleep in my own bed in my own room on another level of the house no problem, but it was always nice and positive to know that I wouldn't be banned from bedsharing simply because society says I'm too old. You are never too old to enjoy family time, day or night, in my opinion. The world needs more bonding and connection and love and security that comes from this sort of arrangement. Families need to chill out and spend more time together, and bedtime is a great opportunity for it.
My mother and I would sometimes start the night together in her bed to talk and hang out and just lay and hug and talk until we both got so tired that we finally went to sleep. It gave us a chance to connect and check in and it helped teach me a lot and allowed her to stay involved in my life (Not easy for a single mother working 3 jobs, thus why night time bedsharing was great for us as we did not have a lot fo time during the day).
So for me, I feel it will be nice especially with my husband in the picture. I am a housewife while he goes out and works and so I feel that night time will be good for him and our daughter as a way to connect and spend more time together at the end of the day and be able to talk and bond. Especially on weekends as already he will wake up before mad, roll over, and just feel my belly and talk to it for a while before getting out of bed. We also have two cats who will come in bed with us and sleep and in the mornings we will just lay in bed as a family and pet them and love them and they purr happily. It's really nice to wake up to happy, loving furbabies, and so it will be the same with our daughter.
Nothing better than to wake up and the first thing you see is someone you love more than anything in the world. Wake up, see them sleeping safe and sound and happy right there and just curl up and hold them close. Time goes by SO fast and eventually it will be rare for your child to want to be in bed with you, so just enjoy it while it lasts because you can't get those beautiful nights and wonderful mornings back ever. Children WILL and DO grow up and become healthy, functional, independent adults, but until then? Let them rely on you, and want to be near you. It means they love you, trust you, feel safe and secure. It is a wonderful thing to have a strong bond and secure family, and it occurs day and night. When you look back, you will miss those nights and mornings and wish there were more of them, you will wish you could go back and enjoy them again and again, but you can't, so just enjoy them while they last. Live each day as it comes, and enjoy every moment because they fly by and are out of reach faster than you can imagine.
Bottom line is, if it works for your family and everyone involved is happy with it, forget what anyone else thinks or says and just do what is right for you and your child.
We will be sleeping upstairs in what will become our daughters room (As our king size master bed downstairs is high off the ground and has sharp heavy solid furniture, thus dangerous for bedsharing.) but what we plan to do is sleep up there on the full size mattress on the floor and eventually when she is ready I will move back downstairs when she is able to go up and down stairs and seems ready for it and then we will have an open door policy where she is always welcome in bed with us downstairs. I think age limits are dumb. I know my mother had an open door policy and that even at 14 years old I would on occasion want to just go up to her room and sleep in her bed because it was just nice to share a bed with someone at night. I could and 99% of the time would sleep in my own bed in my own room on another level of the house no problem, but it was always nice and positive to know that I wouldn't be banned from bedsharing simply because society says I'm too old. You are never too old to enjoy family time, day or night, in my opinion. The world needs more bonding and connection and love and security that comes from this sort of arrangement. Families need to chill out and spend more time together, and bedtime is a great opportunity for it.
My mother and I would sometimes start the night together in her bed to talk and hang out and just lay and hug and talk until we both got so tired that we finally went to sleep. It gave us a chance to connect and check in and it helped teach me a lot and allowed her to stay involved in my life (Not easy for a single mother working 3 jobs, thus why night time bedsharing was great for us as we did not have a lot fo time during the day).
So for me, I feel it will be nice especially with my husband in the picture. I am a housewife while he goes out and works and so I feel that night time will be good for him and our daughter as a way to connect and spend more time together at the end of the day and be able to talk and bond. Especially on weekends as already he will wake up before mad, roll over, and just feel my belly and talk to it for a while before getting out of bed. We also have two cats who will come in bed with us and sleep and in the mornings we will just lay in bed as a family and pet them and love them and they purr happily. It's really nice to wake up to happy, loving furbabies, and so it will be the same with our daughter.
Nothing better than to wake up and the first thing you see is someone you love more than anything in the world. Wake up, see them sleeping safe and sound and happy right there and just curl up and hold them close. Time goes by SO fast and eventually it will be rare for your child to want to be in bed with you, so just enjoy it while it lasts because you can't get those beautiful nights and wonderful mornings back ever. Children WILL and DO grow up and become healthy, functional, independent adults, but until then? Let them rely on you, and want to be near you. It means they love you, trust you, feel safe and secure. It is a wonderful thing to have a strong bond and secure family, and it occurs day and night. When you look back, you will miss those nights and mornings and wish there were more of them, you will wish you could go back and enjoy them again and again, but you can't, so just enjoy them while they last. Live each day as it comes, and enjoy every moment because they fly by and are out of reach faster than you can imagine.
Bottom line is, if it works for your family and everyone involved is happy with it, forget what anyone else thinks or says and just do what is right for you and your child.
Wednesday, June 13, 2012
Saturday, June 9, 2012
Week 28
Well, I hit the third trimester. Things have been GREAT so far, so I am hoping they stay that way. I'm now in the final stretch. She'll be here anywhere from 8-14 weeks from now whenever she wants. I am honestly hoping it's closer to 14 than 8. I think 12 weeks from now would be a nice time, but really it's all just a waiting game to see when she is ready to be born. ♥ :)
Legs cramps haven't hit me very much lately. Still leaking colostrum. Still eating bagels with cream cheese. Still having a wriggly baby. I love her and her moving around. I know I am going to miss it so I am just enjoying it as much as I possibly can.
Legs cramps haven't hit me very much lately. Still leaking colostrum. Still eating bagels with cream cheese. Still having a wriggly baby. I love her and her moving around. I know I am going to miss it so I am just enjoying it as much as I possibly can.
I saw Lori on Thursday (I'm writing this on Saturday morning...lol) and everything is good. I'm healthy, baby is healthy, growth is good, activity is good, heartbeat is good, blood pressure is good, hemoglobin levels are good (I got a finger prick to check them), basically everything is chill and good and awesome. Hubby got to feel Lilith's head with his hand (Lori showed us how to tell her head from her butt with our hands and feeling around on my belly, it was so cool!!) and should apparently be able to put his ear on my belly and hear the heartbeat! So neat!! Oh, and she was head down and to my left when Lori felt around. Smart baby! Now stay that way until you're ready to come out!! (lol as if~) ♥
Also, my friend had her baby on Wednesday. He came two days before his eviction notice (Yay baby!) and mom and baby did great and are doing well. I'm so happy for her and for her new little family. She was a great pusher and he latches like a champ, and the hospital and doctor/nurses on staff that day were a good fit for her because she had a positive birth experience and is really happy with it. That makes me so insanely happy. Positive birth experiences are SO important. I plan to call her in a few days to see how they're doing. Give them one less person to have to talk to and stuff right now since I'm sure they're getting all sots of texts, calls, visitors, etc. and I don't want to add to that this early on for them just as a personal preference. :)
Anyway, pics and numbers to finish this off:
Also, my friend had her baby on Wednesday. He came two days before his eviction notice (Yay baby!) and mom and baby did great and are doing well. I'm so happy for her and for her new little family. She was a great pusher and he latches like a champ, and the hospital and doctor/nurses on staff that day were a good fit for her because she had a positive birth experience and is really happy with it. That makes me so insanely happy. Positive birth experiences are SO important. I plan to call her in a few days to see how they're doing. Give them one less person to have to talk to and stuff right now since I'm sure they're getting all sots of texts, calls, visitors, etc. and I don't want to add to that this early on for them just as a personal preference. :)
Anyway, pics and numbers to finish this off:
Week 28
37-39-36 142 lbs
37-39-36 142 lbs
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