We also ordered and got two puzzles for me and Singstar 1 and 2. We spent 3 hours playing Singstar the day we got it and spent about $34 in additional downloadable songs. I may laugh myself into labor from it, it has a playback function and you can change things like pitch. We sound much better as chipmunks while singing... ;)
We sent the carpet cleaner out to be repaired a couple days ago. They said 3-4 weeks so hopefully it will be here in time to clean the carpet and fix the den so I can birth in peace. In related news I'm copypasting a post I made last Saturday to one of my mom groups:
Jaaten has been pissing on the carpet and stuff and nothing we have tried has worked because our carpets are old and saturated deep deep down with urine and cleaners and stuff because our downstairs doesn't dry anything 100% ever. Seriously, our den/downstairs sucks when it comes to that and there isn't anything we can do to fix it really. Anyway, about the cat pee problem, basically we need to fix our deep cleaner and seriously get all the pee and cleaner soap stuff out of the carpet 100% so he'll hopefuly not smelll anything there and stop remarking. Right now it's "pee. clean. pee again clean again. pee some more. clean some more." endless cycle.
It is worse because it's easily accessed to him right now since Cellus moved everything away from that side of the room to deep clean the carpet (and then our deep cleaner died.). Once the carpet is clean and dried (Well, as dry as we'll probably be able to get it...) we can move things back where they belong and that will cover most of his pissing spots and hopefully the cleaning will fix the ones that are still exposed. So the side of the den where we are planning to put the birth tub and set things up for the birth has stuff here and there and the whole den is organized wrong right now while we try to deal with this. It's life, it's only for a little while, it will get better, I know this, but it still sucks and I'm still nesting and pregnant and crazy.
So anyway, starting yesterday we've start keeping him in the bathroom with his litter box and food and water when we cant keep an eye on him (sleeping, going out, when I have to do housework that requires focus etc.). I wish I could just babywear him. It makes me sad we have to do it but it's what we have to do for now it's really our last resort and only temporary.
Anyway, the point of all that backstory is so I can talk about my bad dream last night because I need some love and to know I'm not just being stupid and crazy, but instead I'm pregnant, hormonal, and crazy.
I had a dream that we did not get this issue fixed in time because like I said, I'll be birthing down in the den where this is going on and where things are at and how for the time being we have furntiure and things all moved around so we can clean the carpet and stuff because we need to. So I dreamt we didn't have the carpet issue fixed (I don't know why it was not fixed yet in my dream, I just know things were still set up like they are now) and so basically the den was nowhere near ready for the home birth and it smelled like cat pee and I could not have my birthing tub and I kept focusing on how everyting in the den isn't ready and it ruined my labor and everything was wrong with the setting and so I had a bad home birth.
I KNOW it was just a dream, I KNOW that we will most likely have it fixed in time for the birth (We have 8-14 weeks still...), and I KNOW that the dream doesn'tmean my birth will be awful. It just sucks having bad dreams and I wanted to talk about it and just get some love from you all where I won't be made to feel stupid or crazy for having a bad dream like this and being upset about it because the dream just sucked major ass even though it's "just a dream" or whatever. I KNOW it is just a dream, but it still isn't a happy one damn it, and I REALLY don't feel like being mocked or put down for feeling this way... I just want some support FFS... :(
I still have that fear but it's getting better now that we sent the cleaner in and Cellus has said that IF it breaks again we're just going to return it for store credit and get it cleaned by professionals so that it is ready in time nomatter what. ♥
Meanwhile, I am nesting again. I want to organize the den and sort things and get it all ready for the birth as the rest of the house isn't bugging me all that much and obviously can't yet. So I've resorted to e-nesting thanks to a room planner online and stuff. It helps a little, but I still REALLY want to go downstairs and clean and organize like crazy. lol
Now then, on to the week!!
I AM THIRTY WEEKS TODAY!!! That means I only have 6-12 weeks left (Baby can come anytime from when I'm 36-42 weeks). Where did the time go?! It's AMAZING to me how close I am to this pregnancy being over already. I KNOW I will miss being pregnant, it is seriously amazing and wonderful and has been one of the BEST times of my life, but hopefully having a wriggly/dancey baby in my arms instead of in my body will help keep the pregnancy fever away~ ♥
I am hoping she stays in closer to 12 weeks, and doesn't come sooner than 8 weeks.
Week 30
37-39.5-37 144 lbs
37-39.5-37 144 lbs
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Also, close up of my belly. My belly button is almost gone. lol
And that's a spider bite on my left arm... :<
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